Is my shahdah valid?
Relating back to my other question about the shahadah I often record myself when saying it and it takes nearly up to 2 and a half hours because of my thoughts telling me I didn’t say it from the heart or I didn’t say this part from the heart even though Ik I had the correct intention sure I said it from the heart. I often put my fingers up during the video at the end of the Arabic and both English sentences to confirm I have said it from heart? But then thoughts come to me after the video saying what if you put your finger up for no reason and didn’t mean it from the heart even though I’m sure I did. I really need help and is it possible I can get a private live chat with a person with Knowledge im just a young 15 year old in need of help.
Answer
Assalāmuʿalaykum Wa Raḥmatullāhi Wa Barakātuh
Your Shahādah is valid and these doubts are coming to you from Shayṭān the accursed.
Each time you are faced with this doubt, simply remind yourself, ‘Allāh ﷻ is my Lord, I am His servant and I embrace this Imān’.
Thereafter, seek refuge in Allāh ﷻ from doubts and from Shayṭān.
It may be good for you to get in touch with one of your local scholars and spend time with him. In this way, he will be at your disposal to assist you in all such related matters.