Am i commited a kufr
Es Selamu Alejkum
Am i commited a kufr if i said La ilahe IllAllah without IllAllah (Estagfirullah) unintentionally etc.im in bathroom and i said La Ilahe IllAllah and i stop before IllAllah because im in bathroom is that kufr,and that same situation happened I said shadada and stop before that because i think i didnt say that correctly and i say La ilahe IllAllah correctly after that.I suffer from waswas a long time and its about a purity,kufr,shirk and other things,and this time i think its not about a waswas i immedietly say shadada after that i ask Allah for forgivness, but i think that this isnt enough and i think that my repetance arent accept and i dont know am i commited kufr or not?Im very worried and i feel that im not a muslim anymore. I know that Allah is most forgiving.
And few times i thinked that i commited a shirk when i reciting surah Fatiha and ayat ijjake na’budu we ijjake neste’in, i think i say ijake.. without tesdid and i struggle a lot with that ayah because i think i didnt say it correctly.
Same with niyyah with ghusl i dont know how to intend correctly and ended up doing ghusl 2 times because of niyyah.
What should i do?
Answer
In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.
Wa ‘alaykum us-salāmu wa-rahmatullāhi wa-barakātuh.
Respected Brother,
You are Muslim!
Do not listen to these thoughts at all. Satan through such thoughts wants to destroy you, your faith, your physical and emotional health.
Not completing the kalimah or not able to pronounce it or the entire Qur’an duas etc. properly does not make a person non muslim.
There’s no sin greater then Allah’s mercy. A sincere repentance erases the biggest of sins.
There’s no need to make niyyah for ghusl.
You must ignore these types of thoughts completely. Listening to misgivings (waswasa) is against piety and sunnah.
Oppose the devil and do not entertain these thoughts and simply pretend they never happened. Otherwise you will find more and more doubts until your life becomes unbearable.
Get spiritual help from scholars near you and psychological help from experts to relieve yourself of this disease.
And Allah Ta’āla Knows Best